Monday, June 30, 2008
i know i am very bad tempered.
i trying hard to change.
but perhaps towards you, i didn't achieved what you expected.
my mind is only filled with one thought.
and the thought is that i hope to get one more chance.
(maybe you are thinking that i aldy had more than enough chances, then i shall not stand in your way.)
if i could still turn things around.
this is really what i want you to know.
我站在路边
等着你出现
你在我身边
我不知不觉
希望有一天
能于你相见
紧紧抱着你
一直到永远
I stand by the road side,
Waiting for you to appear
Unknowingly,
You were standing beside me
Hoping that one day,
We can meet one another
Hugging you tighter then ever,
Forever and ever.
Monday, June 30, 2008
我不晓得你到底在想什么，
如果你觉得这选择是对的，
也将不会再有晚会的机会，
我只好含着泪水让你离去。
如果将来会有那么的一天，
能让我再次遇见你多一眼，
非常希望能再爱你多一点，
对你表示我还不能忘己你。
我也不要求太多，
我只是很想知道，
你是否还爱着我，
你是否能原谅我？
再次给我一个机会改过自新，
也算是再给我们多一个机会，
只希望你能再回到我怀抱里。
我是真的舍不得你离我而去，
我们重头再来好吗？
我希望你能相信我。
我对你的爱，是真心的。
Labels: 请你原谅我好吗？
Monday, June 30, 2008
teared in class.
totally lost.
felt defeated for the first time.
broken down.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
there are many things in life others get, while i don't.
there is just so many for me list them out.
i guess it's probably the same for majorities?
week 1 of school is already gone. was real fast.
results had aldy been issued out many days back.
to me, results shall just be a source of motivation.
especially of what i had achieved for those MST.
i really feel broke.
my allowance never seems enough.
my allowance is barely "can make it" to cover my needs.
not to even mention my desires.
what can i do?
should be glad of what i have today.
so bored. sucky saturday!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
EVERYTHINGS IS ALRIGHT.
NO LONGER EMO.
HEHE.
THANKS EVERYONE WHO SHOW THEIR CONCERN.
SMILES :)
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
think all i need is to get a good rest.
that's for today.
enough of tearing.
that is making me gay.
it takes a strong person(especially a guy) to mention this.
germany won 3-2. was glad.
i am happy with what i have.
there are just many things in life i don't have.
whether it's need or desire.
i should be glad of who i am today.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
it takes something so hurtful to make me tears.
all it takes is something wrong to be mentioned at a wrong time.
it does makes the difference.
perhaps to you it's nothing.
as you can bring up issues on what i mentioned before in the past.
i don't tears easily.
yet i tears over this.
have you wonder how miserable i must had felt?
i am just so not myself.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
just so bored.
maybe today too hyper.
talk too much.
didn't i?
i did.
i am answering myself.
what the fuck?
lol.
tired of tearing.
tired of excuses.
perhaps tired of everything.
tired of life.
tmr having ct.
damn.
i seriously hate her lecture.
who knows what she is lecturing?
i just want to sleep.
and perhaps never wake up again.
thanks for those for showing concern.
perhaps it's time to let go?
i am totally sick of waiting & comprising.
how i felt . . . ?
only i know. . .
Thursday, June 26, 2008
maybe that someone still don't get the message.
nevermind.
i shall not care.
i just want a carefree life.
you had said things that are hurtful to me.
not the first time.
at least twice.
this really made me tears.
i really have no mood to blog anymore.
if you think it's better that i don't interfere with your life.
then so be it.
ask yourself this.
since when i ever call you up to check on you.
but you did.
you made me like a fool.
if you think whatever i mentioned in the past is on purpose.
so be it.
all i want to do is to care for you.
yet you don't appreciate what i said.
it may sound hurtful.
but it meant good to you.
but i doubt you take it that way.
you really hurt me deep inside.
i no longer feels like myself anymore.
you said something that break my heart.
you made me tears.
what more do you want?
Thursday, June 26, 2008
i am so not myself today.
i talk alot.
i don't usually crap that much.
what is wrong with me today?
i really don't know.
perhaps i am just bored.
fuck it.
tmr is friday.
a fucking boring day.
nth to do.
just feel like drop dead like that.
don't want to think so much.
i just want to be alone.
i am just feeling emo.
sadness within me.
life certainly sucks.
all thanks to you.
thanks for those things you said.
you changed my opinion of you.
i just can't be bothered.
i am just lifeless.
don't ever disturb me.
until you had reflected.
you made me utterly disappointed.
don't made me do something i hate.
do what you think is right.
i don't give a shit.
cause you don't give a shit to how i feel in the first place.
why should i compromise you.
why should i understand you.
when you said those things.
i am hurt deep down inside.
i am really hurt.
just feel like breaking down.
i hate this feeling.
you causes all this pain.
don't expect me understand you.
i don't think there is a need to.
and please respect me.
if you think that i am wrong.
that i am the causes of your failures.
what more can i say?
this is what you think.
you are over sensitive.
you over reacted.
you had changed certainly.
don't tell me that you have not.
i don't care if you read this.
whatever done is already done.
whatever said is already said.
you made me felt miserable.
when i suppose to be delighted.
you spoilt my day.
you spoilt my mood.
you had made me suffer.
what is there for you to say?
i want to hear no excuses.
don't just put the blame on me.
you made me think that i causes the problem.
but the real issue is with you.
please.
use your brain and reflect what you said.
what i wanted to say is already mentioned.
Labels: emo-ing
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
my heart sank when i heard those words.
are they truely from the bottom of your heart?
i really curious to know is that how you feel?
don't know what's wrong with me.
perhaps i am always the negative one in your life.
especially those moment when you are down.
i am always to blame.
don't know/care/bother who i am refering to.
just freaking upset.
am i just so hard to understand?
am i making life difficult for you?
am i?
i should be proud of my acheivement.
especially my results.
i am proud to announce that i exceeded my own belief.
i scored, 99, 92, 91, 85 & 84 for all my term tests.
which is straight A's.
i also congrats xin min for doing better than this.
i am not jealous/envious or what.
i am happy for a friend who did well for her studies.
in my point of view.
one deserved results only if one puts in enough effort.
that's why i detest people who envious/jealous so much of others good grades.
i believe.
the only way to succeed if to surpass your targets.
made improvement to those factors contributing to failures.
aldy 3days gone.
school seems so fast than expected.
i am getting EMO.
from my post, i am confirm emo.
don't ask me why.
somehow/someone/something.
made me feel so.
just pretty upset & certainly disappointed.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
well.
hate to see ppl arnd me emo so much.
why can't they treat life easy?
just feel that, whatever my actions affect them.
no matter how small. the same outcome.
the blame will be on me. i wonder why?
my apology to sabo xf & yh into the dialogue session.
sorry : ) =x
nothing else to say.
i am just getting emo : (
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
well.
4th ppr is back. didn't do as expected.
but luckily still a good grade.
i see a decling in my result.
from 9* drop to 8* is just 4 ppr.
many ppl arnd me envy of my result.
i rather they not envy me, made me feel as tho i haolian lydat.
i dedicate this result to my family members, esp parent as i did not let any of them down.
and also to my beloved gan jie, zhihui. hope this will bring laughter/smiles to her face. cheer up alright?
tmr last ppr. PMM. how? of cus i wan to see a 8* la.
but shall not pinned so high hope yeah.
and so many days never see/hug/kiss my laopo le.
sobsob : (
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
a joke i came across. just thot of sharing it.
A trio of old veterans were bragging and jokes about the heroic exploits of their ancestors one afternoon down at the VFW hall. "My great grandfather, at age 13," one declared proudly, "was a drummer boy at Shiloh." "Mine," boasts another, "went down with Custer at the Battle of Little Big Horn." "I'm the only soldier in my family," confessed vet number three, "but if my great grandfather was living today he'd be the most famous man in the world." "Really? What'd he do?" his friends wanted to know."Nothing much. But he would be 165 years old."
Monday, June 23, 2008
my mood now. super happy.
got back 3 of my test results.
extremely unexpected.
very impressed with my results.
structures to come. hope to get result of the same range.
shall not be over-confident.
wed. PMM ppr.
not feeling confident for a module i like so much.
damn. what the ...
today went to queensway to search for charles jersey, then i end up buying sth for myself.
the senheisser earpiece i ordered online, i received today.
got it for $20 only. not so bad.
Labels: HAPPY :)
Monday, June 23, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i seriously hate people that keep repeating they have no money, no money.
always want people to compromise him/her. this and that. everything his/her way.
i seriously can point out things that shows his/her ability to afford things that is unnecessary.
i wish he/her can stop whining about the no money issue unless necessary.
DAMN!
still mulling over to search for the almost-impossible-to-find-in-singapore-bag.
think not, i got other things that is more important for me to spend my money on!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
my beloved laopo is back in singapore!
hehe.
i miss her sooooo......(
ToBeContinued) much.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i wan this bag desperatly!
if i can find it in Singapore, it's a miracle!
leftfoot don't have. far east plaza don't haven.
queensway shopping centre? shld i try?
i actually desire for it, convenient for outdoor whereby i can put my belongings inside. someone got this bag to sell? i know it's
LIMITED EDITION & it's released ages. just suddenly have the urge to have it. shld i or shld i not?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
just a few lines of 3 words dedicated to the one & only in my life,
i miss you,
i love you,
i need you.lol. i am real bored.
someone date me out?
tues got meet-up in school for CT project at 11am.
hopefully everything goes well. :)
i shall go search for my beloved bed now.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
YES.
my 100th post. what a miracle.
it seems to take ages just to reach this very post.
not feeling so well.
maybe because i strained so muscles?
it hurts.
damn.
argh.
help.
that's all. :)
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
once again i am at home. bored.
rotting away.
this is my 99th post. wow. after like 20mths.
so on average i got 5 posts per month.
30/5 = 6.
i am such a lazy blogger that i blog only every 6 days!!
wth!!!
someone kill me please.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Monday, June 09, 2008
hello. just a random picture.
well, as you can see. i am just too bored that i blogged three time today.
damn! what to do? life so aimless during holidays.
yupp, not forgetting to mention, chatted with czl ytd n todae.
miss those secondary school days. where we had fun like never before.
Monday, June 09, 2008
2nd week of holiday le.
there's many thing yet to be touched. damn!
shall enjoy the holidays when possible.
and i am on the wrong side of the scale!
someone help me... or maybe motivate me please...
i need a drive of motivation.
Monday, June 09, 2008
back from BBQ few hours ago. to give my colleague at daiso, qingyuan a so called sending-off to army in arnd 1-2 weeks time. really was great one. tho i don't really know his frens well. i do click well somehow. shall post a few pics. cus i am lazy to blog.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Saturday, June 07, 2008
EUROPEAN CHAMPIONSHIP 2008!
I AM SUPPORTING,
NETHERLANDS FOR THE WIN!!
Labels: EURO 2008
Saturday, June 07, 2008
got my nokia n81(8gb) on 04/06/2008.
was quite impress with it. esp the stereo speaker.
n i didn turn up for joan chalet as verbally agreed.
as something important suddenly out of nowhere appear.
happy birthday joan! n to fidel too.
i'm SORRY joan. you have turned 18. sld be matured enough to accept my apology bah?
i'm real BORED!
Labels: my sincere apology to joan
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Monday, June 02, 2008
hello everybody... nice to meet u...
i'm jingying...
siongleng's ........
siongleng's ........
siongleng's ........
up to u guys to fill it in.. hahaha
ciao
Monday, June 02, 2008
today,
went cycling just now with jingyinglaopo, tingling jiejie, evelyn meimei, ah meng & ah teck.
thooooo, the number of person is lesser than expected. well we still enjoyed the day.
really hot afternoon.
we cycled for roughly 3 hrs? 1st hr paid, 2nd & 3rd hr free!! think is holidays promotion bah?
think we cycled around a total of 30km? faint. so tired. thk gonna be my 1st time & last time cycling so far away. haha.
had steamboat just now at night with them, evelyn left earlier cus got sth on.
during steamboat, it was really fun. haha. tingling always kena by ah teck.
was a fruitful day! thanks guys!
Monday, June 02, 2008
Sunday, June 01, 2008
test is over.
cant wait for tmr.
cant wait for 4th june.
cant wait for 7 more years.
cant wait for..........
human just got so many desires.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
EUROPEAN CHAMPIONSHIP 2008!