Thursday, July 31, 2008
today didn't do much in school. mbw did brickwall measurement. lunch ate at fc 1, before heading to class. but too early, class lock, thus went to jay car to enjoy aircon, but end up going car wash, then for some fondue. was relaxing. yeah. i enjoy it. sorry azri, this wasn't planned initially.
yupp, i also missed a bus because i went to buy peiling a chocolate, to thanks her for lending me the structures tut. smiles alright? : )
tmr bbq, really looking forward to it. hope it's fun : )
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
today pmm lesson was alright.
head for lunch with companion of 4 ladies.
then azri and shida join in after that.
bid goodbye to peiling. head to cafe in the campus.
discuss on project presentation.
tmr gonna present, i am scare. haha.
went to IMM giant to meet up with weeteck n guys.
did a little bit of shopping for fri BBQ. i am looking forward to it.
there's something in my mind.
am i or am i not about something?
haha. maybe i won't know.
time shall decide. test n test. argh.
so fast. will my dream come true? haha.
i certainly hope it does, however, i shall focus on my studies, then to clear the obstacles in the way. : )
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
getting sick of reading and replying.
i just want to hurt no one anymore.
we lead our individual life.
no point suaning me indirectly.
it don't works on me.
you had made the right decision.
congrats.
enjoy your life while i enjoy mine.
because you made the right decision.
there is nothing much i want to say.
i didn't treasured you in the past,
and well, tada. the end.
i got nothing to hide.
as i did not betrayed you.
i do not want to know who backstabbed me.
cus i shall not wan to know anymore. thanks.
i am not shifting the blame to anyone. it's just that this is my blog, my personal space. thanks.
did sth cute on msn just now.
so malu to say.
ppl, don't say what i did ah.
if not i no place to hide my face sia.
bleah.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
just done with structure tutorial. tho i got some parts not sure.
gotta do revision on acc&fin later. no more dragging. tmr after school meeting up to discuss gems project, before heading to buy bbq stuff with teck they all.
recently read some joke online. so funny. laugh till my teeth drop.
was really wondering, why do human changes so fast? especially somebody? haha.
i just wanna be a better person than before. i'd chosen to let go of the past, and pursue my happiness : )
if dreams do come true, i hope the person in my dream is you.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
suppose to start studying today.
but i didn't.
tmr i really gonna start studying for test.
think i shall begin with acc & finance for the start.
today school was alright.
like nothing much to do.
test is coming. damn.
i am so afraid of it. argh.
creative x-fi is well, not that bad, but average to me.
the design is awesome. tho it's equipped with speaker. not outstanding.
psp matt bronze, should i buy it? it seems like desire only.
haha.
i am so tempted to spend.
someone help me. =X
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
today wasn't productive.
didn't manage to study much at all.
did i started on it?
was using my laptop a lot todae.
did loads of update.
tmr lesson at 10am.
acc & fin again.
haha.
so fast week 6 aldy, looking towards to fri.
BBQ!!!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
had kfc for dinner ytd.
went to shop arnd at MS,
bought 2 shirts.
nice to me, but maybe not to others?
who cares, i like can le.
i cant seems to start studying.
argh, later must at least go read up on notes.
there is something which made me laugh a lot. really.
LOL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
nothing to say.
i had a weird dream last night,
not sort of a nightmare, just came as a surprise.
pleasent surprise? i don't know. time shall decide.
haha.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
back from morning soccer.
today i didn't perform well. sucks man.
was really entertaining.
full of laughter. haha. :)
just ate malay rice for lunch.
burp! nice and full.
i seriously love spicy food.
later meeting my gay fren at je mrt.
haha. go suntec with him to see shida performance bah?
haha.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
today school was the same.
after class went to collect laptop.
then chiong back to acc&fin remedial at 1-3pm.
chatted with jay more than listening to class.
then went home, before heading to meet azri(new gay partner), went to do some acc&fin stuff with him. head towards woodland to slack.
ate waffles. kaya waffle. he ate peanut.
walk around, sit down and chatted.
feel so comfortable chatting with him.
then i went to pierce my ear.
lol. the trend aldy gone, yet i go. lOl.
then after some psp and chatting.
home sweet home.
what a day! nice indeed. thanks jay for fetching me to clementi, though old chang kee is GONE!!!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
test is the next upcoming big event. yes, i'd yet to even check on the timetable, let alone preparing a study schedule. argh.
life is full of up and down during this past 1month. i'd changed from one person to another completely. perhaps it's the power of love? just that acting negatively on me.
neverregretwhatyouhaddone,
alwayslookforwardtowhatcanbedone. : )
tmrwillbeabetterday : )
believe & have faith in oneself.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
well, read her blog, is she mentioning me? i don't know. shall not be bothered so much. i lead my life, she lead hers.
tmr gonna head down to collect laptop from 1130 to 3. since i got so long break. then shall attend 3-5 acc remedial instead of the 1-3 remedial. as i rather collect during the break than 3-5. haha.
today did partially of the site report, plus some structure n mbw. haha. i'm so noisy. i need to shut up and keep my mouth shut. really.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
today was a better day.
had pmm today, kinda confusing. nvm. plus today i went to get my laptop serviced. yeah. collecting on fri. anyone wanna to acc me?
went chilling with azri after mbw remedial plus servicing of laptop. slack and chatted a lot. played with his psp too. yupp.
to evelyn, the thought of blaming you had never came across my mind, this breakup is between me and her. i hope jy understand what i mean. it hurts me when i see you tears, kor wanna say i'm sorry for causing all this problems. smiles : )
our clique need you : )
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
the oldself of me is aldy dead.
i've been my newself recently which is not good as i'd totally changed for the negative.
well, i will try to improve on my newself, to be better than who i am now. but no longer will i be back to my oldself.
i really thanks everyone who gave me this chance to realise my mistakes. my heart teared when i see you guys tears. sorry for bringing mental torture to you guys. all i need is time to change.
site report, gems project. argh.
i cant imagine next semester more projects. faint.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
today school was alright.
i think i'd been too over concern. i blamed myself for that. i apologize for anything i'd done that disgust you guys. i'm not seeking for forgiveness. i just want to say i'm sorry.
my brokeup causes a lot of trouble. i wished i could control my emotions, but i failed.
tmr gonna fix my laptop. money gone again.
i really want to back to my oldself, if not, better than before.
sorry guys. : (
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Monday, July 21, 2008
everyone in my clique using 5megapixel phone soon. beside me. haha. doesn't bother me much, as i'm music oriented person.
today suppose to be a happy day, but that was the past.
perhaps being overconcern doesn't help. i shall not care much :)
my phone so oily now. argh.
Monday, July 21, 2008
hello blog. sure you don't miss me.
today, celebrated some occasion at restaurant.
so confused, blog i missed someone, that someone won't know. oh my ...
what the fuck i'm blogging? bye blog i want sleep le. nights. enjoy blog. fuck myself la.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
did i sound too harsh in my recent entries? maybe i am.
what more can i be blogging about? my gf left me, yet she's happy with life instantly. plus that third party, how can i not sound harsh?
i don't know if i can trust her words anymore, i'm just shocked over her decision. maybe she forgot what she agreed? well, i cant blame her. but what more should i say.
it's never fair from the beginning. NEVER.
bored. my back scratch against da goalpost today. ouch. that's all for today.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
today went soccer. tired, having a headache. now back home.
test is coming, yet i had yet to start revising. not in the right mood also.
is being single good? i don't know. my heart had dried up from bleeding. well, i'd lost my place to a TWENTY EIGHT years old BASTARD. really thanks so much you BASTARD. if it wasn't you, forget it. mentioning BASTARD spoils my mood. congrats for you, you achieved what you desired, for causing a breakup. and she changed ever since working, what can i say? liars n their lies. perhaps i am not worthy of your love. disgusted by the changes n decision. you left me wounded yet you enjoy being in love again. you get what i mean.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
my laptop died for someone not worthy to die for.
i'm speechless to your decision, heartless decision.
Friday, July 18, 2008
a scar will forever remain, hurt like never before, wish you doesn't exist, as you've disappointed me.
thanks that guy for being a third party, don't tell me it doesn't affect us. you yourself know the truth. if you are happy, i congrats you, there's nothing i can say. just to let you know, i wish you all the best, i can never be happy again, because i'm hurt right through the heart. you will never felt how i felt. because i am totally devoted to you, i didn't initiate the breakup. as long as i'm not guilty conscious, i'm fine with life. life move on, yes, thanks for those happy memories, also thanks for those pain you brought to me. i wish i'd never know you, thus i won't be hurt today. i can bring you down if i want to, but i choose not to. you'd changed drastically, i'm shocked. hope you know what you are doing, and not regretting your actions.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i've been lively recently. very hyperactive. seems to me, i lost my appetite to eat, esp at night. don't know why. today site visit was like, not bad, but lost my pen which i got for birthday. sorry guys. wonder who so desperate to steal my stuff when i just placed it there.
i'm so in love with psp lately, i planning of buying a matt bronze psp slim if i got money after holidays. so nice.
today didn't do much in school, lesson wasn't so productive. lecturers also never teach much.
so bored. so bored.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
wor. this is my 151st posts.
today school was so so. after school did gems project. wasn't productive at all. sorry guys. i'm tired.
went to lucky plaza get cologne with azri, found one, thus buy a miniature to try.
chatted with him a lot today, thanks for cheering me up.
i don't enjoy waiting, but i will wait because i love you so much. even it's in vain. no point crying over spilled milk. is it a fair breakup, i don't know. i will hang on guys.
hopefully i need not fake a smile in times to come.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
well, she aldy removed pictures of us in the past from her friendster.
she also seems to be happier without me. is it really that way? perhaps i caused her too much miseries in the past that no matter what i tried, it will no longer touched her heart. or was i aldy being replaced in her heart by someone else?
i really don't know. but i certainly know that i cant give up hope. i still love her as much. but does it count anymore? i am no longer my old self, i'm faking to be happy in school. why why? why had this happened to me? because of misunderstanding? perhaps it's too late. i'm willing to wait, but i ain't got a chance to do so. i just wanna break down and cry. really. hai.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
today reached school early. i saw her and her classmates having breakfast. she seems happy to me. perhaps she's really happy afterall. or was it on da surface?
well, i really cant get over it. friends had been telling me to get over it, no point waiting stuff. they also tried to cheer me up. all the effort seems to go down the drain.
i still love her. i cant forget her. she's the one i needed badly in my life. perhaps i didn't treasure & cherish her enough. perhaps i'd aldy lose out to others. i really don't know.
i really need her by my side.
i'm sorry for what i'd done.
i'm still pinning on hope to be tgt once again.
perhaps it'll never happen again.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
am i a nuisance?
i just want to be back to normal friend with her.
is that a lot that i'm asking for?
don't know if she's avoiding me, shall not jump to conclusion.
perhaps this is da suffering i deserved for all i had done.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
doned with soccer in da morning.
exhausted.
physically and mentally.
don't know what am i suppose to do.
i keep telling myself to move on,
but, it don't seems to be the way i want it to be.
i'm stuck, i cant seems to stop loving her n forget her.
i really want to sleep. better be for good. no more thinking.
to escape from reality.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
i'd once said, i hate people who emo so much.
guess what, it applies to myself too.
i think i really must move on.
i will only feel miserable if i don't carry on with life as i used to.
today da job was great. now i udrstd mascot's job is tough.
freaking hot man. haha. thanks for introducing me da job weijie :)
Friday, July 11, 2008
i'm getting emo again.
paranoid again.
why should i be feeling this?
3rd week of sch ended. faster than expected.
maybe tmr playing soccer in da morning. i'm rusty. super rusty.
i'm tired. later gotta work just for today.
argh. hopefully it's a nice experience for me too.
i still love you, even it's one sided.
Labels: myloveforyouneverchanged
Friday, July 11, 2008
hai.
read her blog.
wonder who's that someone?
but there's nothing i can do.
perhaps she is not blogging anymore.
perhaps i no longer gonna be myself anymore.
i really don't know.
perhaps this is single sided love.
i still love her a lot. but. . .
Friday, July 11, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
i cant seems to let her go.
i hope she don't overtire herself working, i am worried for her because she easily fall sick.
i hope she take good care of herself.
i still **** you, but do you still?
anything you need help, just let me know. :)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
today went to get my laptop repair.
but, no stock for LCD.
guess what, it cost roughly 520 plus GST.
damn.
regretted what i had done.
hai. no money sia.
gotta work during holiday to repay back the money.
argh.
why am i so suey.
today chatted with charles a lot.
i realised it's not so easy to attain a license after all.
but i shall only take up driving if i can afford to. or if my eyesight allow to.
LOL.
i also think that it's time to really let go.
and let fate decide.
Labels: let you go
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
perhaps this is da last post on her.
i hope she know that she had changed drastically.
don't know what to say also.
i shall carry on with life, though i'm wounded, i will strive to move on.
i hope this long break will benefit her, for her family, her freedom. i think that's about it. i just wished that i could have know everything. but i shall no longer further pursue the matter. if i'm not suppose to know.
ytd was fun, thanks charles, eve n tl for da outing to chill out. did enjoy myself.
and i hate acc n fin. don't know how to do tutorial. damn. :)
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
it's time i let go.
i founded a lovely rose,
forgetting there is thorns.
gotta let it go,
and let it be bygone.
i would have to carry on and lead a normal life.
thanks for all the supports guys.
shall move on with life.
and let fate decide. :)
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i don't know what's with me.
i just feel like dying.
i seems to had lost everything.
my mind is filled with those thoughts.
but i know it's impossible to go back to the past.
i've broke down i believed.
perhaps so. i couldn't let her go.
someone kill me please.
my mind is full of regrets.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i did nothing today.
i just lied on my bed aimlessly for da whole of today.
thinking, thinking and still thinking.
hai.
maybe i just cant accept da fact. and to let her go.
i'm living in regret.
i seriously hate myself for what i'd done. i wish i was dead.
so i need not think so much.
isn't that better?
Sunday, July 06, 2008
for da first time, i felt so down.
i cant seems to forget.
I cant seems to think.
i'm getting tired & lifeless.
how i wished it had never happened.
i'm really troubled.
i need consolance.
perhaps this doesn't helps?
there are things that i should be doing, but i didn't. i just don't want to let go of it.
why does this happen on me?
perhaps it's too late to apologize.
didn't went to class gathering ytd because i felt troubled over this. i'm very confused.
i really felt heartbroken.
will the scar be heal?
i really don't know.
it's up to fate to decide.
but . . .
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i gotta move on with life.
but the thought of her, our happy memories and our times tgt are all over my head.
i don't how she felt.
i believed she is sad too.
but i sure felt sad. i can't seems to forget about her. why is this so?
perhaps, i still hope that she will be back by my side one day.
life gotta move on, but it don't seems to happen to me.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Saturday, July 05, 2008
life gotta move on.
i've come to term tat the fact there is no return.
what i've been trying was in vain.
at least i tried until the death blow come right into me.
sadly we are no longer tgt.
i really don't know what's wrong or even her actual reason for the breakup.
if fate allow, i hope that we can be tgt for once more.
even it's next lifetime:)
i respect her decision.
i wish that she takecare of herself. cause i shall not interfere into her life anymore.
it's just that i felt insecure for her. i hope she know who i refering to.
don't wait till it's too late then you start regretting.
really thanks everyone that helps me to pull through this stage of life. thanks guys. i will bestrong.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
i'm currently single.
but yet. . .
i really don't know why do i think so much.
i'm pretty not myself this few days.
thursday, even ppl like tl also can get irritated by my nuisance. what's wrong with me?
today went to have lunch with her. there are things that i used to do, but i can no longer.
and i tried hard to control. i did somehow. cause i know i don't have a choice.
what's wrong with me? i'm envious of ppl easily. because that i probably don't get material love? i think so.
laptop aldy down.
too late to regret.
it takes time to repair.
perhaps da memories will be erase?
and forever never return?
i don't know. gotta do a back up somehow, tho some parts would be replace. i believe it will function same as before. :)
perhaps i should sit down n think, what i can do in life. n try to forget about miseries. and stop comparing with others.
i really need to control my emotion. but i'm still trying.
trying and trying. i wish what i had tried for would end up with sweet returns. :)
Friday, July 04, 2008
hai. so envious of ppl arnd me who gets to learn driving n even drive in da future.
i doubt i can.
find myself so useless.
can't even achieve what i dream of when i was young.
all thanks to my eyesight problem.
hai.
felt so not myself.
anyway, i cant afford to drive or travel. i don't even have a passport. surprise?
talking about school trips or holidays, i can never go. can't afford to. poor me. felt so sad.
hope you guys udrstd.
i'm really tired, i would rather achieve what i desire than doing well for academic. perhaps i'm saying this because i'm feeling this.
Friday, July 04, 2008
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
laptop down.
i cracked the LCD with my head out of depression or was it frustration?
i don't know.
perhaps i will do funny things and be emo for good.
i might never recover from this fall.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
can i woo you back during this period?
i will compete to win back your heart.
i have faith in you.
i have faith in us.
do you have faith in me?
lets not set a timing of 1 year okay?
trust me, i am willing to change just to get you back to my side.
i know it takes time, i know i might not win your heart.
but i strongly believed that, you are the one for me, and i will not let this opportunity to get by me. i will prove myself worthy to be loved by you once more.
i still love you : )
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
am i suppose to woo you back from competitor?
i really wanna know.
because you mention no string attach.
and no condition.
if i were to agree to ur agreement.
of staying single.
am i given the right to woo you back?
i really wanna know.
but i am seriously paranoid of losing you.
i don wan to force you to take back the breakup decision.
i can respect your decision.
but i will only to faithful to you only,
i hope you know about this.
and also, must it be a year long?
can't it be until i woo you back?
believe me i will change for the better and woo you back to my side.
but must have faith in me. and both of us.
i want to have faith in you.
can you show me the faith?
my love for you had never changed.
i am willing to compete with them.
but i dare not take a huge gamble, because i might lose you.
perhaps let me hear more from you.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
perhaps you don't understand that the fact that you allow competition totally put me off.
you never said you won't agreed to accepting them.
and initially it's 4 mths, 6mths now it's 1 year.
you think it won't affect me?
i have my right to confront you because of your actual excuses to breakup.
but i regretted immediately to salvage everything.
that is because of my bad temper.
but i did changed last night.
i try to sort things out right after realising my mistakes.
but i tried so hard to keep giving in.
over and over again.
no matter what. i failed.
within this period i going to be devoted to you only while remaining single.
other girls never come across my thought.
but yet you hurt me by keep telling me i am just like another typical competitor.
you are giving me unnecessary stress. you made me feel that other guys is better than me.
(if not you wont want to break with me)
and i scare you choose them over me.
i just felt that. i felt the agreement favoured you more.
don't forget the fact that there are ppl arnd you that is wooing you.
what would you do if they are persistant? would you reject them? would you?
it's not that i don't trust you. it's just that it's during the down period of your life, their simple actions can simply win you over. yet i am not suppose to interfere? or am i allow?
(i would like to know what do you mean by fair? how do i compete?)
this is because i am paranoid to lose you. understand me please.
you will tell me to have faith.
1year is not short is reality.
i have no answer for you.
because i tried my best to settle out an agreement yet you disapprove.
what more can i think of?
i was always thinking and thinking.
you had made grave mistakes in our relationship before, yet i can forgive you.
why can't you do that to me now?
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
i just cant bear to see you embrace in others' arms.
i sincerely hope that you can accept me back after the period.
but during this period. you are to be single n devoted to me just like i will be devoted to you.
please don't leave me alright?
i need your assurance,
i don't wan you to be shared with other guys.(i am not trying to be offensive)
i just hope that this is a break/holiday for both of us.
i don't want a breakup.
unless i didn't change during the break period.
then you can choose to breakup instead of not to patch back.
perhaps this is too demanding?
but it will hurt me to see you with other guys during this period. (you give them a equal chance as compared to me.)
i just felt paranoid of losing you.
if you are to breakup only after the period because i didn't change for the better.
i would have to accept it wholeheartedly.
but if you are to reject the possiblity of patching back after the period.
(which mean breakup now)
it will hurt me more. really.
i just hope this would be a good break/holiday for both of us.
what i need is to continue showering love & concern for you during this period.
as a boyfriend. which i admit i haven done so well in the past.
i want to prove to you that i really regretted.
i cant bear to see you suffering alone by yourself.
i was thinking/reflected and did soul searching for the whole of last few days.
on how to get you back by my side.
but no matter what i tried. i failed.
please, let me show you that i cared for you once more.
this is all i wished for, if you still think that it's not possible.
i would have to continue trying. nevertogiveuptillibreathemylast.
but, i certainly wish you would let me prove myself again.
because i used to take you for granted.
but i will not let it happen this time round.
i promised. if i do take you for granted, you can do what you want. cause i would had aldy broken the promise.
i don't think i can survive through this period without proving my love for you.
i am willing to change for you. i don't want both of us to wait throughout the period.
i really asking for this last chance to be with you.
are you willing to let me try, for this 1 last time? i cant force you to say anything.
i really hope you could said yes.
i truly love you wholeheartedly.
i knew you also love me as much as i love you.
so perhaps.
i hope you trust me for what i had written above is what i had been thinking/reflected on our relationship.
i need your trust for the 1 last time. let me be by your side just once more.
this is all i need to prove that i love you. i am sorry for what i have done.
i will love you for who you are and you will love me for who i am.
please. i cant bear to suffer any heartache anymore.
but the decisions still lies with you. from siongleng
someonewhoseekforgivenessandsomeonewhoneedjust1lastchancetoprovehimselfworthy
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
i didn't went to school today.
just don't feel like it.
i just can't afford to lose you.
why don't you get me?
don't you understand?
i felt paranoid when the thought of losing you flash in my mind.
but you can only tell me i hope it's you.
i really don't know why.
why can't she close her doors on others.
just like me? i am willing to wait for her.
i just want assurance. i don't want to wait in vain.
i am just afraid you won't choose me.
as you are open to alternative.
i am really confused and depressed.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
我输了。
她还是决定和我分手，我只好随着她的决定。
或许一切都是因我而起的吧？
回想过去，我不是一个好男朋友，
我没有完全的与一个男朋友的身份去对待她。
我则低地的错了。
我一直希望会有晚会的机会，可是，我一错再错，根本都不值得多一个机会。
我打算了，我和她还是分开一段时间，让她做她徐有做的事。
在这一段时间里，我也只好则低的改过，希望能与她再次的在一起。
这段时间，我不晓得有多长，我跟她只是朋友的关系。
再也不像以前了。
在这一段时间，我将会有competition，可是我希望她能据决他们。
因为，我不想白白的等她，也因为我要她相信我会为她改过。
也许是我怕私去她，所以我才会这么地想。
在这一段没了她的日子，我就好像活在黑暗中似的。
我只想称心的对她说，“对不起，我伤了你太多了。我只能希望，过了这一段时间，你会无条件的再次接受我。”
第589天，我期待会有那么一天，你能回到我的怀抱里，继续陪我算下去。
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
我希望，我将会是，
`一辈子艘在你身边的天使，
`一个能把你笑荣给带出来的爱人，
`一直陪伴在你身边的另一半，无论发生什么事情，我能永远的一直在你的身旁，搜户着你，关怀着你，保护着你，想着你，爱着你。
`你这一生中的唯一，就像你是我一生中的唯一。
你还能想起当初的我们吗？
我记得很清楚，应为有了你，我才能找到生活的意义。
当初的我们俩，十分害羞。
还记得，第一次握你的小小的手的感觉。
你感到害羞，我却觉得你非常可爱。
虽然你不能在我身旁陪着我庆祝我们在一起的第一个月，可是，我不在意，应为我爱你，我了解你的苦衷。
记得很清楚，我们看的第一部电影是，happyfeet。
虽然电影没我想思想中的那么好看，可是，你的处在就已经足够了。
过了不久，我们也一起上了MI。
起初，是分配去了不一样的班。
我十分难过，应为没有了你的处在，我感到寂寞。
可是，无意中，你原来是跟我一样班。我当时是多么的高兴。
在不久后，也一起读了，sporepoly，一样的课程，我也很高兴。
虽然不已的班，我们俩感到非常失望，但是，哦尔能再校园里碰见，我也很高兴。
虽然在这一段时间，发生了一些不愉快的事情，可是我们还是跨过了这一个难关。
这让我更加爱你。
不久后，你的生日快到了，不知所措，不知道该做什么给你。
我最后还是打算择99克心给你，已表示我对你的爱。
在我们在一起的时候，我承认，我是有错过，你也犯错过。
可是这已经是历史了。
直到今天，吵了这多次架，你才打算放弃这一段感情。
我十分遗憾，我知道你也不舍得。
为何要放弃呢？
如果我不爱着你，我也不会去特的记录小我们在一起多久的日子。
也不会简讯也只简讯给你一个人。
我只想说，我知错了，对不起，希望还有晚会的机会，我将不会放弃你。
应为我舍不得你离我而去。请你再相信我好吗？
如果，这一些话不能打动您的心，我也无话可说了。
我只好低头认输，依照你的要求，随你做决定了。
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
如果我能回到过去，
我愿意用我的一身，
换取你的一切，
再次的对你说“我爱你”。
请你原谅我好吗?
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
if you ever think that i don't love you.
there is nothing for me to say.
why would i type those chinese sentences just for you?
i want you to know that i love you deeply.
it hurts me when you feel down,
it hurts me when you are sick,
it hurts me when you are sad,
it hurts me when you achieved your target in life,
it hurts me when you said those words,
do you know how much i love you?
why do you have to do this things, say those words, just to hurt me.
this hurts me more than any other things.
i know i might had does the same to you.
perhaps you had enough of me?
and thinks that others can do a better job than me?
don't you think i would feel jealous over some issues you mention?
i kept it to myself. i don't want to restrict you.
yet over and over again, you make me jealous over the same issues.
still i kept mum over it.
i don't want to dwell on those unhappy past time.
i had decided to let them be history,
i believed in you,
but do you believe in me?
我是真心的爱着你, 你要如何才能相信我呢？
我的心每一份每一秒都在为你而流泪，
我是真得不知所措，脑海里一片空白，
如果你有别的想法的话，请你告诉我，
这就能让我在也不再缠着你了，
也能让我彻底地把一切给忘掉。
Tuesday, July 01, 2008