Wednesday, July 02, 2008
perhaps you don't understand that the fact that you allow competition totally put me off.
you never said you won't agreed to accepting them.
and initially it's 4 mths, 6mths now it's 1 year.
you think it won't affect me?
i have my right to confront you because of your actual excuses to breakup.
but i regretted immediately to salvage everything.
that is because of my bad temper.
but i did changed last night.
i try to sort things out right after realising my mistakes.
but i tried so hard to keep giving in.
over and over again.
no matter what. i failed.
within this period i going to be devoted to you only while remaining single.
other girls never come across my thought.
but yet you hurt me by keep telling me i am just like another typical competitor.
you are giving me unnecessary stress. you made me feel that other guys is better than me.
(if not you wont want to break with me)
and i scare you choose them over me.
i just felt that. i felt the agreement favoured you more.
don't forget the fact that there are ppl arnd you that is wooing you.
what would you do if they are persistant? would you reject them? would you?
it's not that i don't trust you. it's just that it's during the down period of your life, their simple actions can simply win you over. yet i am not suppose to interfere? or am i allow?
(i would like to know what do you mean by fair? how do i compete?)
this is because i am paranoid to lose you. understand me please.
you will tell me to have faith.
1year is not short is reality.
i have no answer for you.
because i tried my best to settle out an agreement yet you disapprove.
what more can i think of?
i was always thinking and thinking.
you had made grave mistakes in our relationship before, yet i can forgive you.
why can't you do that to me now?
Wednesday, July 02, 2008